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for about as long as i can remember, i've always been serounded in darkness and lonliness. i feel so cold and alone that i feel dead and empty inside. my soul has been curesed to walk this earth forever not knowing love, forver tainted black. i feel pain that no one should ever feel, i am the thing that stairs back at you when you look into the abiss. my life forever lost in a never ending darkness with voices that hounted me, teasing me all say i'm never getting out i'm stuck in here till the end of time. my soul is their's to controll. i'm going insain in my own mind i can't help but feel lost in a place that i know. everything's different i can't tell which is up or down anymore. i feel nothing but blood lust in juelusy of others happiness. my life is getting to the point were i can't escape the madness, were i should just imbrase the madness and go on a rampage of blood spill and destruction. my life will never know happiness only pain, hatred, blood shed, sorrow, and lonliness. the voices calling out another person's name i don't know. they keep calling for david the destoier, david the hell bringer, david the blood sheder. i don't know who david is, my mind is starting to end my life and start a new one all on it's own. i can't handle this my whole life is spinning out of controll i can't fight the madness any longer i might be lost in it forever. i need help. please someone help me