yar.... so, my counciling thing is on tuesday.... on toppa my usual school stress, i now hafta find something (such as my sketchbook) to take in and show the councilor and make a list of 10 really cool things about me that no one knows.... and to make matters worse, certain people(cough"family"cough) have my self-esteem even lower.....
now onto the porn.... *deep breath* OK so my mom told me today a lil while after i woke up that the councilor had asked her if she knew what anime was and how important it was to me.... my mom said something to the extent that it was "japanese cartooning" and that she had learned recently that it started out as "japanese porn" .... she also said that its VERY important to me or that its my life.... so there i am sitting downstairs thinking to myself about how my mom has so many things confused.... not to mention that a few weeks ago i had told her that i dont like to watch anime when other people are around and she had responded by saying "Why dont you like people around? does something happen to you when you watch it" .... i remember thinking maybe she thought i was into furries or hentai or something but tried to brush it off as my mom's naivaty to her own words..... but now im really starting to wonder if she isnt trying to connect anime to porn.... im kinda worried she doesnt fully understand what it is and that she thinks its like a porno.... despite that she assures me she knows that its not..... AND NO I DONT WATCH PORN or masturbate to anime or anything gross like that. I MEAN JESUS ******** CHRIST. IV GOTTEN SO MUCH s**t ABOUT SO MANY THINGS.... I GET IT FOR NOT DOING SOMETHING, FOR DOING SOMETHING, FOR LIKING OR NOT LIKING SOMETHING, FOR LIKING SOMETHING TOO MUCH, AND EVEN FOR JUST STARING OFF INTO SPACE THINKING...... I CANT OPEN MY MOUTH OR KEEP IT SHUT WITHOUT GETTING s**t.... its kinda like how, for a while there i didnt come out of my room except for meals, the occassional late night tv watching on our main tv, and for school, i got s**t from my mom about how they never see me anymore and how i should watch tv downstairs everyonce in a while and what not..... and then when i did, they'd always yell at me to go watch tv on my own tv..... so anywho.... im just rambling now..... about anything that pops into mind.....
o and ive read so much more of AT SWIM TWO BOYS.... for a while there, i got so confused.... and then i found out Doyler is practically a whore.... but ..... i dunno.... god, and all for his crapped up flute..... gonk stare gonk crying stare crying cry cry sad sad o and damn them "brothers" -stupid christians think they're so grand because they try to ******** lil boys(ok, so hes 16, but his mind is still pretty innocent) and make the boys think that its completely innocent and good for their souls.......
Unni Ineo · Sat Mar 18, 2006 @ 09:25pm · 0 Comments |