Those three words really do something to me. I don't know. They just... let the emotion ball up into that one simple sentence and they channel out of me.
Sometimes it's easier to say than other times. A quick "I love you!" with my heart suddenly jumping. Or in moments i can't describe, where i stay silent for a while, smiling and blushing with a happiness i can't fit anywhere else, and a small soft "I love you..."
They have always had a big significance. But i remembered something. I thought to myself "When i was dating my ex, it seemed like it was so easy to say." And that's when i realized why.
It had lost its meaning.
By that point in the relationship, i could say "I love you" as much as i wanted because it held no emotion. Just a spark of some-sort-of-happiness that quickly disappeared, as sparks do. I'm stunned to think that the words i cherish so much had become just three words from the English language. Something to make me believe i held emotion for someone i had started to hate.
Of course, those three words have their meaning now, as explained before. And i can picture someone saying "Why is it so hard for you to say? Do you just not love them? Are you forcing it out?"
No, not at all. You see, it is so filled to the brim with words i cannot find to say, emotions i cannot even begin to describe, actions i cannot carry out without stumbling. It is so packed with these complicated things that i can't help but to try and force it out, desperately trying to get it to you. I want to shoot it at you directly. I want you to feel the emotion behind it. I want it to seep into your mind and i want that spark to start a fire in your cheeks and curl your mouth into a gentle smile.
I love you.
Sevi Grippaggio · Thu Apr 21, 2011 @ 05:29am · 0 Comments |