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I feel like there are so many flaws in my family and the way they perceive and interact with their world. It's all very polar and not stable. And it's people vying to make their paradigm the paradigm of the group. Laura. She is an extremely strong personality. She means well, she really does. She's just stuck in her own little world where it's so all about selflessness which is fine, but I think she perhaps gives up a little too much of herself in this selflessness. I think that's why she is so heavily dependent on God. Mom is the same way, but she's more prone to let it be and not try to FIX everything else in everyone's lives, as Laura does. I think we all are clinging desperately to each other, but we need to recognize that we will always be here for one another. I can go off and do my own thing just like Cale does, and I can still be a part of the family. We will always be family, and nothing is going to change that. No one will ever be shunned. No one will ever be the black sheep, because we are all freaky weird people and we don't have room to judge. People need to see reality for what it is and know that things are the way they are and there's nothing you can do about them. I think a heart of our problems really is Laura who just needs to back the ******** off of everyone else's reality. I think all of this can be solved just by talking with one another. Which I will do.