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Doing better today.
Figured out the work thing. After next week I will be only working weekends. (though i'm scared about the days when I'll need saturday off for renfest or something like that) But I guess I'll figure this out as I go.
Still feel like I've sold my soul a little though. I'm just not ready to give it up.
Also, I picked a song. A song that I just recently listened to: The Water by Johnny Flynn and Laura Marling.
I was concerned that all the songs that I listen to / would want to cover would be very.. Umm.. About love and whatnot, I guess.
I mean, Home? That's a great song, when you're singing with friends. But a bad choice when you maybe-like someone.
I read a book. The Unbearable Lightness of Being.
It was pretty good.
One of the things though that really caught my attention though, is Tereza, she would stare in the mirror all the time looking for her soul.
As anyone who's been in my room knows, there's a chair right in front of that full length mirror. I'm a bit of a soul-looker as well. I'm surprised that a body can contain all of this.
Now I'm reading a book called Unbearable Lightness. (isn't that funny?) It's a biography of an actress (who i never really kept up with or anything. I don't actually know anything about her, I just heard of the book) and the actresses struggle with things. Mostly anorexia.
I really love books about suicide, anorexia, and occasionally cutting.
Don't get me wrong, This isn't like..cause for concern or anything. I just like reading about it.
It's 12:24 and I feel no guilt for staying up, because I DONT HAVE TO GO TO WORK TOMORROW MORNING.
I still do need to memorize that menu though. Which is terrifying. 46 pieces of paper, filled with descriptions of things. Good god.

"When I was a waitress I gave away my tips. When I was a call girl I gave away my hips. When I ran the kissing booth I gave away my lips. I travel light, and that's the life for me."

One of the things that really bothered me (and this is really..I know this is ridiculous.) They said at work that you couldn't wear nail polish. That's a small thing to freak out over, right?
But I just felt like they were going to restrict me from something that I like to have. and If i were working 7 days a week, then that means, i could NEVER wear nail polish.
Terrifying.
Luckily though, now I will be able to. I'll just have to take it off on the weekends, then I can put more on. Which is fine, I mean, that's what I should be doing anyways.
If it weren't 12:30 I'd probably go paint my nails right now.