Lately, I been becoming envious of everything and I can't seem to understand why. Since I've been enjoying my Summer break from school, I've had a lot of time to think to myself. Overall I realized that I've went though so many different experiences and changes is year: I'm now just becoming aware of them.
Its almost as if I've become a totally different person from who I use to be. Reflecting on myself, two years ago, from high school, I use to be such a troubled and lonely child; and suffered so much due to how I was treated by some of my family members and other peers. Now it seems, all of that pain is finally gone, and I've recovered. Since this has happened I became a confident individual and learned to accept, and continue to improve on my faults. I've even become less sensitive, and growing to be stronger because of it.
I decided to title this journal Solemn Thinking... ~Kikyo-sama~, due to how I've been thinking to myself. The name Kikyo-sama is also the name of one I most admire on the anime/manga series, Inuyasha. Kikyo-sama was always so serene, and thought about so much whenever she was alone. Because of her feelings for the one that she loved and duties of being a sacred priestess, she always seemed to be lonely. I don't blame her for feeling that way, because I don't know what more one could do than that.
In a way, I believe that I most relate to her; however she, herself choose to be alone. Kikyo-sama also struggled with the fact of facing reality, and diluted her vision with rational thoughts.
I pray that with her example I can learn to overcome my envious feelings, and overall become committed to what I strive to do. I know I can do this, because I understand were I'm going wrong. I've learn that I have difficulty focusing on multiple ideas at once. I don't yet know if this is a bad thing, however I'm understanding myself a bit better.
Thank you so much for reading, MOMO-chan signing off.
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