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everything!!! goddamnit!!! honestly get it, really i do, you're trying but hell if you don't care what the outcome is but you're still pushin me around to help you then F***ING get your act together!!!! cos i'm NOT a friggin pawn - i am your brains trust you retard!! without me all your arguments would be personal and addressing the wrong person!!!!!!

so don't friggin ask for help, then leave half way when i'm giving feedback. cos i sure as hell know that who we're up against is more intelligent than you and you're the only one who has any say in this situation. i come across as harsh because they're not gonna give you mercy to get what they want - don't you get it?!?!?!

i could honestly not give a crap and walk away but it's my home we're talking about here. MY HOME waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay before YOU even showed up. and YOU have nfi how much THIS means to me. how much EVERYONE else in sxp means to me. so obviously if you ******** up i'm going to leave. obviously if you ******** up i will want nothing to do with your apologies, when i tried so damned hard to make sure we'd win. obviously if you ******** up it's gonna get super awkward. and obviously it's gonna break MY heart to see sxp die by your hands.

and from all this Maiz is still gonna stand by me and support in whatever way he can. 'Rock with you! You're not alone!'