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I'm tired of this. A talk about my weight, ya I get it dad. I'm fat, and need to lose weight -.-
I'm going to do something about it. Now. These useless feelings of commiting suicide, what are they helping? Nothing. The only way to end all this. Is to do something about it.
And I already know/see the people who are hitting themselves in the head like DUH. And I know its taken me a while to just do it.
And I know I've said I was going to. But I mean it. I'll do it. I'm going to work hard.
Even for such a super ficial reason.
People may still annoy me and upset me, up I am done being so depressed. I'm tired of those feelings, and relying on people to solve my problems.
It all starts with me
And it will end with me
I'm going to work hard and finally do sh!t.
Although when I think of it, I'm doing this to get my dad off my back, to make him happy. But it's benefiting myself. How does that work? :/
But what do I know? I'm just a teenager.
And I guess in a way, I'll thank him right now.
Thanks for your stupid talks, and other sh!t, I guess thanks for helping me now, and not later, when I'll huge and trying to lose weight.
I don't know. I guess I look back and I'm like, if he hadn't gotten my attention than I might be bigger, and then I'm like, people tell me I'm not fat, which one is it xD
Ugh dammit. -.- I don't want you guys to be annoyed with me. So just don't be okay!
I'm gonna do it :/
Ugh dammit.