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Hey cuties the end of the year is coming close and feel it time to reflect on what I've done. What I've done over the past years to who I've become....sound legit?
It's actually something that's been on my mind lately, the stupid things I've done and said, the memories I have but wish I didn't. It's that feeling that I want to erase it all, and live as the person I've known for I'll say two months. But erasing all of those, I'd just relive them now, in this year because I'd be that person, I am that person. I'm a person who over think everything and thinks over everything to much. I realized....I regret to much and hold myself back....I wish I did certain things but can't go back to change it, I'm a sophmore with so many choices that are ahead. I need to do things I want now or never. I don't know what I'm thinking or saying right now honestly, but...see I don't even know what to say here. Over this past year I've learned ot things and made choices, some people said I've changed, but do I just take their word? Hmm....this feels really need, I think I'm going to ponder it while I walk my dog.
That moment when my mom comes home and annouces once, but then annouces it louder. Don't be stupid, b***h
During Christmas break I've acually neglected my boddies needs, it wants to sleep right, I mean people usually do, but I stayed up and I look like death! Dx
When I die, I think it'd be easy to leave a journal, describing memories I remember clearly. That way people know what I went through and regretted. I hope when the time comes, I've discovered myself.
I've been having a hard time remembering things lately, and I tell my dad so he likes to tell me I'm getting old....but it worries me at such a young age to be losing my memory so rapidly....sorry thought I'd share that too...^-^
When I write to you guys do I sound older? I remember being 11 and my friend told me she thought I was 15...so now that I'm 15....I must act like 20 .-. this friend quit gaia and I've lost conact with her, but I remember her [: That why going through my friend list I can't delete people because even if we don't talk, theres that memory when we did, and I smile.
What if I become a hoarder because I'm unable to throw things away because of memory ]: ew.
I think this is enough pondering, I'l talk to you whenever <3 I'm going for a walk with my dog, in a winter wonderland. Hope I don't get frost bite x:
-Tiffany