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I always thought that life was never ending
that i could live forever and stay happy
but as i grew up, things began to change before my eyes
i saw how cruel and heartless the world can be
i saw how people ive known for years, werent the people i thought they were
I saw that family, wasnt family at all...
the arguments, the hate, the anger...
it was all too much!
I found out i had no family
that i was given up as a baby by the woman that was my mother
i was brought into a family that was strange and new to me
i never felt so alone in such a crowded place
the shadows that huant and cover my heart and mind are the ones of
neglect, suffering, loss, anger, fear and most of all hatred
Hatred for the family i have that fights all the time
hatred for the mother who left me in a strange and lonley place
hatred for my friends who arent there when i need them
and hatred for myself, for being weak and helpless and lonely
Hatred for myself for not being good enough to stay with my mother....
the list goes on and on...forever and a day more...
but one day
One day
I will feel the warm and soft glow of love and happiness...
and all i have to do...is wait
so i will wait as long as it takes and do whatever i can to reach that happiness
and when i do...
then and only then
will i find peace of mind and heart

Poem from SexyMistress... biggrin