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dont know just random s**t ummmm... it was 420 a few days ago and i got like uber stoned... but i feel so bad because i told amanda that i would stop smoking.... and that made me think.. allot.... i just dont know any more.... it just seems like every day brings deppressed thoughts for me.... like me and amanda broke up a few days ago then got back together.... not to mention the fact that i have been like blowing her off for like 3 days.... and... well i wouldnt be so deppressed usually but... i found something out.. and it made me think.. me and some of my freinds were talking about personal affairs.. when amanda came up...and i relized something.. every time we break up... she takes more drastic measures for attention... wich in a way means i am ruining my lovers life... and it really gets to me...i dont know... i cut myself for the first time in a decent while yesterday.. and now im like.... afraid to talk about anything with amanda... its just like ever since we broke up ive been extremely insecure... i dont know what to do... i guess ill just go now... before i say something i might regret.... unless i already have... i honestly dont care anymore....

Posted by: joshua the voice Sat Apr 22, 2006 @ 09:22am

we are left with no arms, caught in the power struggle.

estimated networth including inventory---- 650k

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Amy loves Lea
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Commented on: Mon Apr 24, 2006 @ 12:58am


	Amanda and you manged to ******** each other up so bad and thats the only reason I care if you two date. I know you "love her" but some times loving a person isn't a good enough reason to stay together. I cared about both of your well beings, but clearly you don't care. You want to kill me, fine it's not like my life meant that much to me anyways. Of course I might not be going to Whitmer so... whatever. I loved both of you but clearly love isn't a reason for people to stay together, there needs to be something else there.

Commented on: Mon Apr 24, 2006 @ 03:07am


	josh i'm gonna smack you for cutting. j/k. i'm sorry if it was my fault. i dont want you to hurt yourself though. i love you. ^_^

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joshua the voice
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Commented on: Sun Apr 30, 2006 @ 04:07am


	listen... im sorry for being and a** to both of you... i was just... bothered... im sorry allie... im sorry amelia... are we still freinds???

Commented on: Mon May 01, 2006 @ 09:11pm


	doubt it. i dont think we're supposed to be friends. we fight all the time. we are allways mad at eachother. friends aren't like that

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Commented on: Tue May 09, 2006 @ 08:36am


	listen......your right..you need to talk to amanda....tell her if your gone she still has her own life...and im the one who gave you a hint...yes every tiem you both break up...she scares us all that is the truth...that is the only rason you with he...you dont want to see her get hurt...and if this doesnt make sence..talk to me in person...right now im friken cold its 3:30 in the mourning and its a tuesday.....Peace this beaner is out...

Commented on: Thu May 11, 2006 @ 10:09pm

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Commented on: Fri May 12, 2006 @ 12:20pm


	im just getting my point accrosst

Commented on: Mon May 15, 2006 @ 11:32pm


	you spelled across wrong. it's a.c.r.o.s.s. k? mrgreen

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