I'm sick and miserable. Not to mention there are still two more shows left to do. Gah, this sucks.
It's strange, I know that there are at least three people that like me... I want to be with someone, but I find myself shying away from their advances. Damn you Brandon. See what you've ******** done to me? I can't even enjoy something that everyone else revels in. I'm afraid to trust again. I'm afraid to let go. I'm curled up tight behind my building wall. That isn't healthy. I know it. But I can't help it.
But, all I get to hear is how stupid I'm being. How I should've known better. We were together for a year and four months. I didn't really know that anything was truly wrong. Sure, relationships can get boring, but when that happens it's time to spice it up. He didn't want to. He didn't try. Now he has someone else. He's just fine. I'm broken. I feel naked, like I have nothing to cling to. I don't have a "best friend". I have a few good friends, but that's about two. Everyone is changing and splitting up. I'm left in the dark, shying away from the touches that could help me the most. What the hell is wrong with me?
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The light of a fading star, is what you were, is what you are
A journal for random things that go through my mind. May be troubles at home or just what I did last friday night. Also, you might find some poetry in here too...haven't decided yet...
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