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It's been another one of those days again.

Only this time, it's a little different. Instead of my past this time, it's actually like what's going on right now, both in the Gaia world and in the real world.

There's been a girl that I've been in touch with for a while now.

Sweet Kagome-chan...

She and I have been in contact with each other for quite a while now. Mostly through MSN, though. And every single time when either one of us has to leave for something "important", it's always a long good-bye.

I don't mind this at all. I love saying a long good-bye. The thing of it is, however, my IRL parents (aka slave drivers) want me off the computer within like three seconds.

But that's not the point. The point is, I seriously love this girl to the point where I want to be with her. It aches my mind and soul whenever I think about her. And every time she and I chat on MSN, I swear it's like God sent an angel to me every time.

And to be honest... Gaia-wise anyway, and this is complete torture to me, but...

I want to marry her.

But something keeps telling me not to ask. Why, I don't know.

Well, first off...
A) I haven't had the time.
B) Either me or Kagome doesn't have very long on our comp's
C) Some nights I'm usually offline for a long period.

Those are the primary reasons. I'm sure there's more, but either I haven't found out about it yet, or it hasn't occured to me yet.

*sighs* Man, I just don't know what to do with my self sometimes.

I practically think about her whenever I hear a certain song either on the radio or on a tape or CD. Even when I'm not hearing anything, I still think about her as if it comes back and gnaws at me like a cat that's begging for attention!

Jesus, even when I said that, I'm somehow reminded of her. It's ******** scary! eek

I gotta stop doing that, no, I have to keep doing that! *has a mental breakdown*

*snaps out of it a little later* gonk Agh! Gotta get a hold of myself!

*calms down a little bit* Whew, that's better...

Man, I gotta lay off of FFR R2 for a while...

More importantly, I gotta lay off on myself for a while.

I guess that enough for today... Gotta get going.