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Thank you everyone, for giving me your support, and concern. I didn't update yesterday, because with all the recent events, I haven't felt like it. I've gone from feeling fine to spacing out, thinking about the worst case scenerioes. But reading everyones, support, and lectures, has made me feel slightly better. I still have this dreading feeling of regret, I've never done anything stupid before, I hate people that do things like this, why did I slowly let it happen more and more? I don't know, the only thing I can do, is hope I get something minor for this.
I really hope, that I don't take all the blame, based on my age. I'm the oldest, of my friend and I who did it, but I guess, I'll have to wait and see on the 19th. Well tommorow, I'd usually go to work, but I'm not planning on it, no one called me to fire me, but I'm not going, because if I do. There will be a scene, and I'll return back to my paniced state. Wednesday night when all this happened, I'd space off and freak out at random moments, at the moment I'm calm and try not to think about it. I just hope that whatever happens, I'm still able to see Julia again. I don't want confined to the state for a year... or more.
The cops know I had plans on moving, hopefully that'll be taken into consideration, I kinda knew the conservation officer, that arrested me. We'll I saw him every summer at work, anyways enough thinking about it, the more I dwell, the worse it seems. I'm trying to stay out of my emo mood "OMGZ life=OVAR?!11 crying crying death meh n0w! domokun gonk "
I was like that for a long time, but eh, I deserve this. It's my fault for allowing this to happen.
Oh and if you don't know what I'm talking about, go read yesterdays entry. Well, gaias been a fun escape, it's helped take my mind of things. My phone calls with Julia, has even been better. She's sticking with me no matter what happens, I'm lucky to have her, and I can't say sorry enough for dissapointing everyone this way. I'm not a bad person really... I was a mentor, and helped with drug prevention and things... I won't even sip anything with alcohol in it, or smoke! I don't even like swearing... eh, oh well off to doing um... things!
~DJ Bothwell
 XDvandalDJ · Mon Dec 27, 2004 @ 12:23am · 2 Comments |
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