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Lame-a** title. I'm gonna post a nightmare I had here so I don't forget or lose it. I wrote it down the minute I got courage to get out of bed and type.

Just for reference, I had to put my fifteen yr. old Samoyed down 7/18/06. It was traumatizing.

:: It's official, my dog hated me. It's 4am and I went to bed not 2 hours ago, only to have the most livid dream so far. I sleep out in the living room because upstairs is too hot, and there's no one home to tell me otherwise. There's a double glass door at the foot of the bed that leads to the wrap-around porch. I dreamt that I was seeing Baby's shadow walking around, as if I'd left him outside. It kept going, coming and eventually stopped and the sillouette was as if he was looking inside. Then for some strange reason he started speaking to me in my head, it felt like.. whispers he asked me 'why' and asked why I didn't go outside. At this point, he'd appeared beside my bed and I was thuroughly freaked out, pressing up againt the back of the couch screaming/crying at him 'Because I LIKE being indoors!' It felt like he was tryig to get me outside.. I kept the portable phone next to me and I reached for it and redialed my sister, who just left for Nebraska 8 hours ago. I didn't get my sister though, I got some lady who picked up her phone. I said I needed my sister, and I'm afraid my dead dog's here. She tried to calm me down and ask me questions. By -that- point, Baby had come to the side of the bed and I could see him properly.. so he wasn't a shadow anymore. He looked the same last time I saw him, but his eyes were looking upward, lifeless, and there was a dried stream of blood from his nose. It was horrorifying. The lady told me to turn on the light. I told her in order for me to do that, I'd have to stand up on the bed and reach over the dog to reach it. So I continued to scream answers at him and pulled the chain. As soon as the light came on, he vanished. But it still felt like he was there.. I woke up and cried at my Chihuahua I called up to the bed. ._. ..Then logged on and proceeded to tell this story. >>; ...then my nose started bleeding.. ._. ::

The dream probably wouldn't have been half as traumatizing if thoughout the dream I hadn't been thinking "Shitshitshit, he's still pissed, damn ki for being an interesting subject!" Over the past week, I'd been learning ki and practicing how to use it, and I'd read about experiences with more advance users having run-ins with 'forms', Beings composed of pure energy or ki. Which also include the souls/conciousness of the deceased. I'm not normally superstituous, and the thought of ki is mostly a subconcious belief thing, But I've read in too many different locations about similiar experiences. @~@; So YEAAHH, it was scary!