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Ok so there is alot going on.... at the end of July one night at work it was me and Kevin((my ex and the assissant manger)) in the store. He told me he had a dream about me then made the comment bout how he wasn't going to tell me cuz it might come true. Well after two drivers came back me and him went outside out back of the store and we talked. He finally told me what his dream was about. It was about me and him getting back together. Then I asked him if deep down he wanted to get back together and he replied "my dream answers that question." then we talked a lil more about everything then I came home. Then I texted him to see if he was going to come by so we could talk more. Well we end up texting for a while. And he came over and we talked more. I was sitting on his lap and he wrapped his arms around me and said that he missed this. I asked him if he had stopped loving me and he said if he did he wouldn't have come over. He said he couldn't stop thinking about how it was a mistake leaving me. He said that I was on his mind the whole week. I saw the looks on his face when we talked and he ment every word. I know I talked bout about my ex. Our communication was not good at all and I took that as emotional abuse when it wasn't. Deep down I really love him and by dating some one else I was just fooling myself.

Well after getting back together the friday((Aug. 5th)) Kevin sent me a text after I left work saying "things between us wouldn't work for the fact that I found some one else and i cheated on you with her. I'm really sorry" So I may never be truely happy again. That is all that he said.

Well 2 weeks have past and I met some one new and thought I was doing ok with the whole thing well each day getting better. Well I spoke to soon because yeasterday((Aug. 14th)) I got called into work and Kevin was the manger for the night. We were goofing off. ((We being Kevin, Kathrine, another coworker, and myself)) Then all the suddon he turns to me and says "stop flirting with me." I wasn't flirting with him. Then when he got home, he IMed me on AIM.

That conversation made everything go down hill. So I sent him a message earlier telling him to not talk to my untill I get something things straightened out. Then I come home from work and he has her on his top 8 as the first one on his myspace.