hurray for school! not. im up at 5am. i have about 4 full days left before school starts up again. i have 2 unfinished pieces of atwork and an entire self portrait left to do by the first day of school. plus i hafta figure out how to cut the edges of this stuff. and my "grandpas" b-day party thing is today. i was told i didnt hafta go, but i just know ill feel guilty if i dont go and get lots of s**t for it. and my counciling is on the 22nd. . . . i want to have all my art done by then. but right now, im thinking i need to do some pretty major things to some of the pieces that are almost done. things that might completely screw them up. i want desperately to give up. i want to be able to draw purely for fun. to draw what i want with what i want. so i could do doodles with crayons and not hafta worry about having to turn anything in. i also wish i could stay outside day and night if i wanted. the first day of school, ill probably be completely sleep deprived just like last year. which was scarey because i was uber hyper.
anywho, i dont know how ill get back to a normal sleep schedule. right now, im soooo tired i dont think i could do the whole go to bed later each night thing. and yet i cant seem to get to sleep any earlier either. im stuck.
o and im trying to get into some sort of shape. i realized recently that not only did i keep the stress & school caused "out of shape" ness but i also seem to have gained some chub. so i tried to do sit ups today. when i was in first grade and in the best shape of my life, they were difficult but i could do probably 20 somewhat decent ones without too much of a problem. now i cant even do one decent one. yikes. o and a few days ago, i started going for my walks again. i thought that since it was summer id be taking plenty of walks. instead i wound up not going on any from probably mid june until a day or two ago. my right leg, the shin, is actually in pain right now.
anywho, i am in no way ready for school to start. the only good thing about it is that ill be out of the house and seeing my friends, which hopefully ill be doing a lot of. i remember getting really depressed and stressed out and anxious (in a bad way) because i hardly saw my friends during the day and most of my classes i didnt know anyone. but i seem to have survived. i dont know if thats really a good thing but o well.
anywho, time for bed. im thirsty confused i cant seem to get enough water. geez.
Unni Ineo · Sun Aug 20, 2006 @ 10:10am · 0 Comments |