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(To be loved...)

The problem with you is I'm not your hero anymore. There's nothing to save you from except yourself. I can't do that. So what do we do now? Love each other? After all that's happened? Can we go back and play pretend? A part of me still strongly wants nothing more than to be by your side. What you need now, though, is something I just don't have the capacity for yet. Something stable. To bring you some small stability I gave up my own. I still sit here suffering in small ways for the sacrifices I made for you. That's not your fault, it's mine. You're forever the best thing that ever happened to me. I fear I can no longer make you happy. It seems more and more that I just can't give you something stable or long term. It's what you need, and that's the problem. I'm what you want, not what you need.