dearly beloved,
I wish you could only see this, but I still can't let you know. Today was one of the worst since you've left me. An emotional breakdown. so much is going on and I can't seem to control it. I'd say your love is the one thing keeping me steady but ... it's gone. I don't have your love any more. I still get butterflies when I think about your name, but at the same time our love runs through my head and then I rewind the tape to try and figure out where i went wrong that you'd go so quickly to another person. This is my question though, if you feel almost as good with Adam whome I presume you can see and touch then what would we have become when we got to see and touch? Huh, I think that one day I might be able to be with you, but untill that day... I'll visit you in my dreams. You know your eyes still haunt my dreams. I still urn for the day when I can share TRUE love's first kiss. but then agian, I cold be just imagineing it. It could just be something that's still keeping me together. Since you left me my love I've lost a part of myself. It's true I can live without you... I just don't want to. One day I might let you see all of this.... but I don't know if you'll be ready for it. My love, one day I will tell you this I promise! But I can't be sure of when that day is. I'm sorry but It might not be for a while. I do love you.
forever and always,
Come what may,
Jeremiah
 Protector of the States · Mon Aug 28, 2006 @ 12:41am · 0 Comments |
