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I've never liked writing in a diary. I don't see how people can stand to write what they did everyday. I never do anything interesting enough to write, but I do like to write my thoughts, such as I do in this journal. But I have such a good memory that if I look back at my diary I remember what went on. Or I just pay attention to all the erros I made. But journals have helped us not forget others who have passed on. Such as Anne Frank. When she first wrote in her diary she was seeking a friend like any other normal plittle girl. And at the end we learn of how the Jews had to live during Hitlers rule. Also there's that movie called the Notebook were her husband reads her life to her everyday so she can remember if only for five minutes. But I want the world to remember me a different way. I want to be known for my actions, not my writings. I have much to say but I will say it and not bury it in a notebook under my bed. And I have other ways to remember the past, pictures. I love pictures, even like pictures of people I don't know. Then I can at least think of some grand story. With pictures I can always remember what they look like, were I was. And I can't hate myself too much for some minor errors. But most of all I just want to remember everything, nothing should have to remind me. This is my greatest fear, loss of memory. For Icherish life and everything I do. The good memories and the bad. Because they are who I am, they are my life. I can look back at them, but I can't see the future. Memories proved I lived, and I desperatly want to be remembered. I will be remembered.