Okay, so i know it's been a VERY long time since I last put in an entry, but I guess, I haven't really thought of much. Which is a complete lie cause my brain is practically going 24/7. But that's just me. So, right now, everything in my life is looking up. I'm doing well in school, just got a job, and I'm openeing my shell and making TONS of new friends. But... even though I've got all these things... I don't feel happy. No, I promise I'm not emo or anything, It's just... Something's missing in my life. Like a big gaping hole in the center of my chest. And there is only one person in this whole world who can fill thar empty space for me. I try every day to get him out of my head. I litterally try to disconnect myself from him because everytimg he talks to me, my heart feels like it's being crushed. For this past little while, I've been trying to force myself on other guys just to think of someone else, even if it's just for s second. I know for an absolute fact that he doesn't love me back... And yet... it hasn't changed how I feel. If anything, it's made the love I have for him hurt me more. You always hear in romance novels or stories how wonderful love is. It's like you have wings and could soar away. Lies. All of it. Seeing his face, hearing his voice, listeing to other people talk about him, thinking of him... This pain I feel has to stop. But how?
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