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"My best friend recently told me that I was the most passionate person she's ever known. I don't know if that was a compliment or an insult, honestly."
-Amy Lee

When somebody insults you, what do you think? I believe the same phrase comes into your mind: "I want to die." I just recently recieved an insult from somebody who I thought was my friend. It turns out now he's just thoughtless and selfish; just like everybody else. He called me a b***h. I honestly don't care anymore... That only shows who my real friends are. If I take an insult like that, I know that I'm with the wrong people. That's the problem. You never really can tell who truly cares. It's hard for me to ignore that because I often think of suicide whenever that happens. Call me emo, I don't care. I am what I am. Me.
In all honesty, I could never kill myself. My real friends keep me alive. When I'm shot down by those who I thought were my friends once before, my true friends are there to save me. I never really understood love. I only love my family and friends. When someone insults me, they are breaking their promise. When they go against me, they are stabbing me in the back. When they say awful things about you, they want you to die. Some insults are just more than a single heart can bear. Those who say them don't understand what that what they're saying is enough to end a life.
School is coming up soon, and I eventually have to face him. The next insult thrown at me may be the last. Now I understand. We are what we believe we are. Insults are just excuses to make yourself feel better than who you are shooting. When I hear it, I'll only ignore it. I'll always know the truth because I make my truth. Even when the world is against me, my world will be there to save me. My true friends.