I hate them... I guess I'm just as suseptable as others are to them, too... And no one reads this thing, anyway, so I can rant and rave and cry here as much as I want without anyone noticing or caring...
Another argument with Neat is tearing me up... It doesn't seem to matter what I do to fix it, things just get worse... It actually started like... a week or two ago, I just haven't wanted to think or talk about it. Every time I do, I hurt... I don't feel like having another breakdown in the middle of class; I don't have a psychology teacher this time to talk to me...
I got to talk to Neat today...and I tried to be cheery... but I just felt like she was still mad at me... I'm the one who should be mad, now... She's refused to answer any of my emails at all. But I'm just sad, because I know I'm losing one of my best friends and there's nothing I can do about it except cry... She told me she'll be busy this summer and won't be on much (if at all), and I just feel like she's planning all of this to tell me that she just doesn't want to talk to me anymore. And it hurts... It really, really hurts...
And that's where these stupid girly emotions set in... I'm friggin' crying right now and I can't stop myself.Everything just hurts. Even if I didn't feel the way I do about Neat, I'd still be upset. She's one of my best friends, but she just doesn't want to put up with me... Rach has sat through my spells and stayed my friend, but Neat... I don't know... I just don't know what to do about it... She won't even give me a chance to make it better... I'm just brushed off... I was the one who had to talk to her when she got online...
I just... I don't know... I dont' know what to think or feel or anything right now.
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Random randomness from the mind of a wierd little person.
That would be me.
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