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Currently Im having a fierce battle with Death here (not my avi's death, mines in real life) and so far it seems like Im winning....yet it keeps trying to lose my control and will to fight back. There is just so much badness going on around my world and I cant seem to deal with it alone. I wonder if there is help....as Im still in the darkness, finding the will to fight and a small light I see but its too far. Im not giving up though....I believe in second chances and Im sure I'll get 1, but til then Im stuck in this pit hole suffering it for being alone. Even my heart feels this bad and I feel like dying...yet I dont choose that cause there is hope for me; sorrow and pain....seems like the biggest words in my head cause Im living it as Im writing/speaking bout it. "DIE ALREADY!!".....no way death, no way. No matter how much I continue to suffer, there is still hope for me and I'll refuse to listen to death....its just not a solution to our answers. R u feeling the darkness clouding ur mind on somedays....if u r, ur not alone; its the same story here and I want to find a way......to find the light. I can help or be helped, but either way I will continue to walk the path of darkness and head for the small light thats in the end.