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"I'm singing from my heart now more than ever. I've gotten a lot braver with my writing."
-Amy Lee

Time's running out until I have to leave them. I have to leave the thing that is precious to me. I have to leave them for awhile, but it might as well be forever. I don't want to lose the friends I have now. I want to believe that we'll be friends forever until the end of time. I will try, but if I fail, I don't know what will happen. Although they've betrayed me more times than I can count, I'm still not afraid. I don't want to lose that "thing" that keeps us all together.
Even if they do leave me, they've already left a scar in my mind. There's no way to get them out, even if I wanted to. You don't just so easily get rid of things like that. I know they won't last forever, but it's worth a try.
Although they're not going to be there all the time, even if they promised, I don't care. That's their choice. I don't understand why not. We've done loads of crazy things before. How is performing a song any different? I don't believe anybody sings bad. I just believe they can practice. Is it just that the rest of us are too embarassing? Is their public image so precious, that they won't even bother to stand with their friends on stage, to sing a final song to the world they are soon going to leave? Tell me, what keeps you from breaking a promise? If a friend of mine asked me to do something crazy, and they weren't joking, I'd do it with them. I made a promise and a silent vow to keep everything I've been told to keep.
This world upsets me... especially the fact that your own friends are embarassed by you. Isn't that the whole reason why you are friends in the first place? There's not much to say here, but how precious a vow is. And when you break it, you're destroying more than you think.