Well... I certainly haven't posted in a while. -ahem- School has been going SO much better now that I've moved. I really miss my friends, though! I haven't been able to talk to Sarah since she deleted me off her friendslist and I haven't heard ANYTHING from Whitney... -sigh- What am I to do? This move was harder than I thought, that's for sure. I miss my father and my little brother and I REALLY miss my little Simby! D: I can't own ANY animals, now! Lately, I've been getting bored easily and inspirations are low. I've gotten a little more conscious of myself and I'm constantly wearing baggy clothes. I also try not to start talking because I think I talk too much. I know I'll probably never get a boyfriend while I'm young... Sometimes, I just feel so lonely. When I'm around friends that talk about things I don't understand, I start to feel small and very unimportant. I try so hard not to crave attention and whenever I think I am, I stop what I'm doing and I stay silent. After that, I just feel ignored. I wish I knew what was wrong. I miss all my friends just too much. I know I don't have too many friends here... Only one came to my birthday. She said she had a party on the same day that was scheduled even before she knew us. That made me feel so low. The rest of her friends went to the party and she came to ours. I really love her for doing that.
Sometimes I wonder why I'm still alive. I know that sounds Emo, but it's true. I mean, without my friends, I don't know where I'd be. Even if I never knew some in person, I'm still so thankful. I was told the other day that my obsessions were so strange. I'm OBSESSED with Kingdom Hearts! >< It's so strange. My favorites will always remain the same, too. OMG, Demyx-kun! ^^ Roxas and Axel, too! Augh...>< Demyx likes his sitar, sitar, sitar!!! xDDD He SOOOO should not be part of the Organization! He's the Diet Coke of it. ONE CALORIE not evil enough!!! xD
Well... That was a productive way to end a journal entry. xDDD
x-N e o n A-x · Mon Jan 22, 2007 @ 12:34am · 1 Comments |