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Well...I have hurt Jess....I was stupid....I told her she sucked at being blunt....I didnt mean to be so harsh...and I know that if anyone reading this is thinking "Jerk, Jackass, What a d**k!!" well thats the way I feel...so go ahead and think that....I dont blame you for thinking that....I feel sick to my stomach and my head hurts....I just...I just feel like such a idiot...I hurt her feelings and made her pissed at me....I just dont know what to do....Im afraid to fall asleep cause Im afraid she will leave me .... I dont blame her if she does though...Im such a idiot...Im so dizzy...I wish I wouldnt have hurt her....I told her "I ******** up" by saying that to her...and she is such a angel I swear to god she is so good she said "Your my ******** up" and that might seem weird but it made me feel good.....like everything I will do will be forgiven....it hurts me....to know i have wronged her...It makes me sick of myself....its like...I once told her that I wish I could kill everyone who has ever hurt her.....so yeah...Im thinking that includes me.... sad ....god Im so stupid....I know someone could read this and think...WTF this is nothing....what a emo a*****e....He is bitching about nothing what so ever its no big deal its a stupid word....Well....to you it may not seem like much but to me its a world of hurt....I just want her to love me forever....thats al I want.....I love her so much I would give my life for her...I swear I would do anything for her..... why did I have to go and say something stupid like that...... I never wanted to hurt her ever never ever ever..I never wanted her to be mad at me....she said she never would be...but I dont blame her....Im such a idiot...............I can barely think straight right now...like there is so much to say but I cant get it out so Im just gonna end this hee.. sad sad sad
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