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You know, valentine's just passed a while ago. Valrentines day rocks when you are a little kid, in K-3. The whole day is making cards, and being forced to give one to the entire class. It was like a second halloween. I get all of this candy in my valentines. Later on, 4-6, we didn't really do so much. You gave a valentine that may have been left over around your house somewhere and gave it only to your closest friends. I was even more nerdy than I am now, when I was in elementary school. I couldn't smile to save my life. Not that I was never happy, I mean smiling for pictures. The worst part wasn, when I was little - I wasn't camera shy either. But back to Valentines day. So anyways, on TV, there are always all these shows about two people falling in love, and happily ever after, blah blah blah. You couldn't escape it either. Every channel. Enem the commercials had to do with love. Sometimes, I get this feeling that I should have found love by now, then I remind myself that it's good that I'm waiting. The feelings get tossed back and forth. Either way, having to each cliche scene after another is like getting stabbed 1000 times over. I'm too scared to have even talked to anyone I liked. I once liked this same guy for two years, and never once made any progress. We were never even friends. I'm refraining from liking anyone right now. As if anyone even interested me. I'm rereading this book right now, which this is the first book I've ever reread, about these two eople who are dangerous to be together, but they overcome and fall in love and all that good stuff. If it wasn't such a good, well written book, I'd hate it.

I've gotten pretty depressing lately. I'm starting to hate ice - and snow. I miss the grass. I miss not having to be told to wear a coat before I go outside. I hate how the pain stings more in the cold when you fall. I hate how slippery the ice is, when you are trying to walk. I hate the regular snow that must fell. I hate how it gets into your shoes, and you loose all feeling in your feet. I hate how your fingers burn once you come back inside. I hate having to walk my dog for so long because the snow keeps her from smelling anything. I ahte how I can't walk up hills anymore just because it is so slippery. I hate missing school, and not being able to do anything while you are free with tons of time, because of the road ways - or beacuse everyone else is already at another's house;

There we go. I hate the idea of romance in my life, I hate snow in general, I'm a great person huh? I just fel like getting that out there.