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Can most people smile? yes. Can most people frown? yes. did you know that it takes more muscles to frown than it does to smile? my dad told me that, before he left to go overseas. i have never seen my dad cry. but i did that day. i cried so much that i never thought that i could be happy again. well then i moved in with my dads mother. you thought stepmothers were evil. well think again. g-mas are worse i advice to never live with them. well here is the story. she is a psycho catholic i mean she is bad... (no offense to those who are, no harm meant to be done) well she tried to push it on me. NOOOOOOO!!! i call my self a free spirit because i beleive life is spiritual and should be lived like so. but i also had been reading up on other religions to see what else intersted me ya know. like witch craft i got into that alot cuz i thought it was fascinating. i had books on it and on feng shui and faerie craft. well the whole reason why i don't see her or live with her anymore is becasue she pulled my hair, ripped my shirt, called me names and tore my soul and heart right outta me because i wouldn't believe in her faith. i'm not one to bow down to authority. i'm kinnda cocky. but anywho after i moved out, i didn't get my things for awhile, so she decided to clean my room out and guess what she did... she threw away my shirts, pants and stuff. but worst of all she threw away my books. that ripped out all the respect i had left for her and her religion. since then i have been rebelious against ever going back to her or her religion. still haven't spoken to her cuz i don't know what to say to her i think i might cry or call her awfull names and i don't want to do that. i mean i see it as what if i burnt her bible, she would not be able to find i damn bit of something in her heart to forgive but i have risen above that and i have. well when my dad left to go overseas, i got sick two weeks into the deployment. with strep throat. it was horrible. well after that my brother breaks my right hand middle finger knuckle at the doctors office. then i move in with my evil stepmother marcia.the devil i swear she is. but then as i settle in there. my evil b**ch of a sister moves in and makes my life a living hell. she is miss *i'm perfect so f*ck off kinnda person who eats her own lies.... well then my appendix decides to take an interesting ride on the burst inside my body jump... so then i get rushed to the hospital and i get to enjoy the next 12 hours knocked up on morphine which i recomend to those who like to get high. smile it was much fun. i aqcuired a fun ride then. well with my body exploding within itself i bring my dad home for his 2 week early leave. then my dumb a** dad decides to ditch his kids for his wife. who by the way needs to just leave, the only good thing that came outta her was my lil brother zachary whom i love very much cuz i practically raised him... well after this bring dad home thing my dad and i decide to get into a nice chat about my x- boyfriend whom i thought i loved. and think i still do. but my dads wife begins an argument about how bad he is and that i am underage to be dating a 16 year old boy. umm i was 15. underage what the hell. so after that my dad and i get into a fight over the bitches big a** mouth. my dads head is so far up her a** he would believe anything she says. so there fore my dad calls me immature and throws a chair at me and says to get out of his face and leave and so i do and guess what little me does, she blacks out from anger sadness frustration helplessness hopelessness and so forth causing me to wake up with a lovely 2 inch gash in my upper left armwhere my muscle was chillin outside my arm and i'm freaking out cuz i can see my insides and i try to get my dad out of his room and he is ignoring me while i'm bleeding and crying and just wiching i would die. my sister comes out and calls me crazy. so i get rushed to the hospital again and get 16 stitches and then my dad and oh his WIFE send me to a mental hospital to get help and i end up there for 13 days of my christmas break. when i got out i had finally got in contact with my mom again and planned to move with her, well i moved out in the first place, cuz of my stepfather touching me innappropraitly. so then i moved with my dad. well after that my dad went back overseas. and i barely talk to him. when i do it's only for a lil bit. but then my sister is going around and telling my friends that i'm mental and bullshit to everyone. then of all things to go wrong my girlfriends x told her that i had sex with him and that i was pregnant with his kid for three months and then he went to the clinic with me to get an abortion. ummm yeah right, no way he is nasty!!!!!!!!!!!!! and oh he disgusts me. so when i see him he will be sorry he ever met me. well now i am living with my mama and i am actually in a sense happy. i talk to my ex and stuff so it's all good. i may even have a new boyfriend from this school. excited!!!!!!!!!! well i have to go. cuz i am tired but peace Mellaney heart xxx
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