so theres this guy, and hes liked me for ohso long so one day, my friend decided to be a b***h and tell him that i asked him out except she lost the note and theres nothing wrong with him, he's not ugly or stupid or mean anything bad, he's just kinda there, he doesn't stand out or anything, but i hate him. i have no idea why i hate him, i just really....REALLY do, so he thinks that we're dating and i'm real pissed all day because of it and because of other things and haflt the time i just wanna break down and cry but i can't do that.....so i was stuck sitting next to him in the assembly and i sat on the edge of my seat so he couldn't try anything and then i finally got my friends to switch around so i wouldnt have to sit by him, of course none of them know this because i'm not very open to them because i do not trust any of my friends at school, so i got through that without crying which is what i really wanted to do, so i was pissed off the rest of the day and the opening show of the play is today so i couldn't be too pissed or anything, 'cause then i'd just feel worse and ya know. so he tried to start conversations with me all day and i just kinda ended them as quick as i could in the nicest way i knew how while still getting out and i avoided him at all costs but of course he's one of the wickershams and i always hang out with the wicks 'cause one of them is my bestest buddy and all and he's completely awesome and all that jazz so i had a hard time avoiding him which made me feel bad so i couldn't smile and the director is always all "erin smiiile" so i gotta smile and they all bug me to smile 'cause they know it annoys me and its fun and yeah but i didn't want to smile around HIM 'cause he thinks we're dating and i'm all rawr gotta avoid that kid and act on drugs at the same time since the whole play is based around dr suess's stories and such so i just gotta be on drugs, it's obvious haha yeah so i emailed him and told him how sorry i was and then i cried a little 'cause i'm being so mean and i just cant help it D: and he's all "yeah its okay fine" and i have no idea how he really feels.....'cause it's email.....but i still hate him and its all these emotions running together and ahh so complicated...so hard, so now i think it's over
i don't even know why he liked me in the first place! rrrr oh well, i gotta wash off my makeup, i look like a clown, i'll post a pic...
yeah i look bad, i did all my own make up, and keep in mind, this is me AFTER the show and i'm wearing the fantastic SUESS shirt...actually it's quite ugly, its that ugly blue and has cat in the hat on it and says suessical rawr lol ahh so sleepy, i'm gonna go, bye
 erinus is god · Sat Mar 03, 2007 @ 04:59am · 0 Comments |
