The image fades slowly and my vision disappears,
the things around me turning black again,
I reach for the knife but no where is it found,
I look to the sky turned black and brown,
the charge of this reality starts me backing down,
off this block I feel rejection slide it's way up my spine,
convince myself to take injection and let myself unwind,
I awake to nothing more than the same old darkness evermore,
cannot find a reason to look up to the sun,
I see no war, no battle, nor struggle won,
give me the light, feel unto me the charge of a normal life,
think I'll run a river, a crimson solemn stream down that which is left of me,
no matter what in the mirror, I can never release this pain,
one shock of reality, like waking from a lasting nightmare,
awake to this world, what is this, what is this around my neck?
could it be I've taken me, that this reality meant nothing to me?
why does everything continue changing yet I remain the same?
why ask questions to which the answers will never be known?
they lay me down a deepened pit from which I may never return,
they've locked the door and burned the key and now they've begun to bury me,
why was everyone so sad? what made them cry both mom and dad?
what has happened? where have I gone wrong?
the light is gone, seeped back into the cracks and crevaces it entered from,
i lay here, but god does never come, I lay waiting still, the sleep may never come to me,
the life i recommend the one without an end, eternally laying in this tomb,
no life left nothing made to bloom, all that is gone with just one move,
now I know, now I recall the reason I lay here now, I sat in my room,
in the somberest of moods, with just this noose; all I did was put it around my neck,
I didn't mean to do what I did, take me back I do not belong here, just an accident in my room,
Do I deserve what I've received? Should death have been the verdict for a pitied soul like me?
xoXoxDanniexoXox Community Member 
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