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This is it. I'm really starting to lose it now. I'm trembling as I type this. I'm becoming unstable. Why is everything so ******** hard for me!? No matter how hard I try, life always has to ******** with me! I can't stand it much longer. Why does this s**t always happen to me!? I havn't done anything wrong! Yet life continues to screw me every chance it gets! I feel rejected, unloved, hated. I feel nothing but hatred right now, and I feel my old demons returning. I feel like I can't trust a single living soul. I guess I just wasn't meant to be happy. Sometimes I think that I'm some part of a twisted game that god is playing. This is bad, if I revert back to my old self... I don't even wanna think about that... but... I feel myself losing control.