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Current mood: pissed off
i am pissed off, i am angry, i want to beat the s**t out of someone.
i'm hurt, i wanna cry, i wanna punch something, i wanna (while were practicing fighting today) beat someone with my daggers.
there are things you do not tell someone, when just friggin days before they confess that they still love you and want you back, that you told another girl you really like you love her! even if you fully dont mean it! i know i'm they're best friend still. but GRAH! damnit! yes i want to be friends, but this sucks. damnit.
i need a boyfriend. ******** this s**t. or something. i need to get out of this funk, but he's my best friend and i dont want to stop being friends, but this hurts!
damnit! damnitdamnitdamnitdamnitdamnitdamnitdamnit!
i know i'm whining, but ********! i have no one i can talk to! no one really like justin and this sure as hell isnt making things better, and yeah people always say you dont have to be in a relationship to be happy, but it what was keeping me happy. i havent been really happy for awhile. like i am but not really happy, like my life is pretty, meh. i have no real friends anymore. i have 2 best friends, one i never see (ever) and the other is so different from me, justin was my closest friend who understood my silly obsessions. and my other friend we talk online sometimes, but *grumble*
my job keeps me happy, the people there make me happy, i love being there, i'm un-sure how crappy i would be with out them.
my brother being away is what got me so down, i kant wait to leave my house and be on my own. I dont want to be like my brothers and i dunno. i wanna make myself happy, and hopefully do it with someone who loves me.
i miss being so loved, being number one, being alot of things that are involved in being in a relationship.
*grumble* i just want to stop feeling like this. i wanna stop being hurt, and stop being sad, lonely, depressed, etc.
yeah, sorry to all who just read this, and welcome to my pity-fest. no i'm not stupid and i'm not gonna cry in a corner and cut myself, or drink, or do something stupid. bitching is better.
Riyu_Nailo · Thu Mar 22, 2007 @ 08:23pm · 0 Comments |
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