who would have thought? I thought i could hold my own but hell no. i suppose this little adventure needs a beginning, a middle and an end.
i have been having a tough year with my relationship. i wnated to be single in the sense that i hate long distance relationships. i am totally against cheating but i still do it anyway. no matter, everyone who knows me knows that my morals are screwed up.
anyway, i have this crush on this guy. he is funny and totally cute and makes me happy. i ended up going to a house party with him one night and met some new people. it was fun. i started off with a beer. [note, i hate beer] it was alright. then i drank a glass of my vodka with juice mix and was feeling it. after that i got talking with one of travis' room mates and she invited me for a bowl of pot. so i went and hit a few bowls. [note i had quit smoking about 5 months ago]
i went upstairs and was totally not expecting a bunch more people to be there. it was really surprising if anything.
by this point i was getting really happy. i would step on a stair and have about a 1 second reaction rate. i went back upstairs and downed my other vodka drink. after a bit i was slowing WAY down. i couldn't feel anything anymore and my body felt sort of fake, like a manican. [note cannot spell today...still recovering]
at any rate, i was starting to want to lie down. travis turned to me a lot and was talking to me. [note i will never remember what he actually said] he was starting to notice that i was really hammered and somehow i got to his room and ended up throwing up in his grabage pale. i think i was crying at some point too and i remember wanting to die at some point. i actually thought i did for a while. when i awakened i was surprised but at the same time sickened that i was still alive. i felt really bad because travis was with me the whole time while i was being sick and i kept appoligizing to him until we parted for class and me home to get some sanity.
so that is my story. i learned a lot and probably will try to let that never happen again. as eventful and fun as it was.....
 Adiiru · Wed Apr 11, 2007 @ 03:02pm · 0 Comments |
