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Ha...funny thing about that....Sometimes I wonder about myself, you know that? For two loonng years I dwell on the loss of the love of my life, which death took so appreciatively from me (this being something I'm used to, and are no longer phased by the means of "passing over" or more bluntly, an untimely death). I can still remember the time we shared...all the fun we had....all the special moments we shared....all the ronchy sex we had too twisted lol. And then things went wrong....it was all my fault....and then that happened. Fate is so unkind, but that's life. You want apples, but life gives you oranges, so instead of making apple pie, you gotta make orange tarrakata pie, s**t happens. That was then and this is now. So after two long years of dwelling on it, I'm finally ready to board the dating wagon, and if you ask me, it's about damn time too, lol. Two long years of being a virgin, it's tough. It may seem Like I am insensitive on the subject....but no, it's different then what it seems. I've just had alot of time to recover, that's all. So I went with my closest brother in my tribe, and we burnt all the notes and all the pictures and all the sore memories. It was at that moment that I decided that if I was to be free, truly free, I should find a girl. Now the thing is I'm not looking for long term, so I'll be sure to tell her the truth before we get into anything serious, because no girl should be lied to. If she doesn't accept that, then I'll respect her decision, but if she does....heheheh, she's looking forward to one hell of a fun time. I'm not so insensitive as I seem, it's just that Honesty is important, and I never hide anything about myself. I go head on into any decision I make. I guess that's what makes me leader in my tribe....I'm still not too sure. It is my tribe after all. That's another problem, lol. I'm not about to date any of my sisters, so my options have shortened down almost completely, but still....I just want to find THAT girl....if I could fall in love again, that would be a blessing. I would forget about fun, and I would seriously go into it, and I'd show her how a woman should be treated....sigh. Firery passions die hard, they always seem to leave a mark of some sort...ha...funny thing about that, huh?