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okay, so my grades haven't been the best, Ds and Fs in all the "important" classes like math and science and LA and SS and i'm missing like 19 things in total, which i suppose sucks, well my parents have been getting all on my case about it and they expect me to be calm when they yell at me, like my sister, but i'm not, i yell back at them, which gets me in more trouble
sooo today, they made up this contract that they expected me to sign, it said that if all my grades for this quarter aren't a C or better, i'm not going to be allowed to get on the computer all summer....and i know they're ******** am so goddamn pissed right now i can't think straight... this isn't ******** right!!!!! ******** ******** ******** ******** hate them so goddamn bad, i have for a while, i swear, if i'm not allowed on, they're going to pay, i won't tell how here, but i know how i will.......dammit i don't give a ******** what they say, they tell me i'm a failure and a slut, they tell me my life will be hell, they tell me how much better my sister was, they tell me how much potential i have, they tell me how much they hate what i am.....what the ******** kind of parents are they? that i'm going to have to live off welfare, and the thing that i really wanna be, is going to be the only thing i can be, since it doesn't take much qualification (massage therapy) the tell me if i don't straighten up...i'm never going to get work, STRAIGHTEN UP? they mean, keep my mouth shut about what i believe is right, be a copy of everyone else, not dress like a freak or a goth and a slut, and live a normal human life that everyone else lives, they tell me to stop ******** rebelling! i don't exactly know what i'm rebelling against, i'm just doing what i believe i should do, i'm doing what i want to do, i'm living life the way I want, not the way i'm told to live or the way someone thinks i should, so i don't do what people tell me, so i ignore many things people say about me, i don't care, it's their ******** opinion, i'm ******** up my own life day by day, i'm getting more and more behind in everything, but the thing is, i'm happy, would they really trade my happiness for their pleasure?? shouldn't parents support what you want to do whether they like it or not???
jesus christ i need to get away, at least for a little while
 erinus is god · Sun Apr 15, 2007 @ 09:57pm · 0 Comments |
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