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I am numb to the point of feeling plastic. Everything inside me is dying. Happiness was the first emotion to leave me. Now I'm left with nothing, just a growing, poisonous pain.

I once told myself I would never go as low as I've gone now. But, mom, I've finally hit rock bottom and I can't pick myself back up. They say there's nowhere to go but up, well, I still feel like I'm falling. I'm so lost and confused and hurt. I need direction, I need a new me.

There was so much I wanted to do with my life. Where did all that ambition go? My life is now an mmorpg and the couch. Except, I got banned so now I have nothing. Can you see where I'm going with this? I have nothing.

I have nothing.