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Yeah, today sucked. It didn't even start off bad or anything. Just after my parents went to bed. I started thinking. I need to stop doing that. I'm tired. I have no real friends and my family sucks, though not as much as others. My friend keeps trying to tell me that I have friends that will always be there for me, but truth be told? Not really. Jordan says he doesn't abandon friends, and I guess I believe him, though not much because I still have the whole trust thing going on. xD Kayla would always choose her ******** boyfriend, which used to piss me off but now it really doesn't because we're not "best friends" anymore. I don't have one of those. Jordan is annoying me, also. I've pointed out to him, hey, Kayla loves Allen more and you love Felicia more, why do you seem to think you guys love me equally? I don't get how he works. It's annoying. xD Anywho, I've been crying for probably the past hour and I'm tired of it. I just want Jordan to stop trying to keep this charade up cause when it comes down to it, they're always gonna help the other person first, no matter how much he thinks he can help us both. Felicia isn't the type to share her help. Not in the mean way. She just always seems to make a big deal out of what she does come to us for. I don't know. I don't care anymore. I wish I had a friend that I could call my best friend, but I don't. And that's not gonna change soon. This is probably really long and confusing. xD I'm still pissed and crying. Byebye.

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