What a strange feeling we experience in our life. I remember emotions faintly that I once believed so strongly and passionately. The love I had and how I tried for what I desired. I remember how I wouldn't be able to talk around him. And I remember sweeting so much1 I recall those flutterings in my heart when I would glance at him shyly behind my books upon his visage. In relationships the best ones are the ones that achange us for the good or don't change us at all. But I remember how I changed for him because I loved him so much. It's amazing how corupted the trail leads to a dead end. How strongly I willed and wished for the outcome. Of two, I wished so strongly. And neither occured. How strange. when I was Proactive as my father tells me to be, I got no where. It's amazing. That I had fallen for him. I had built him so high, created him my perfection. I needed him to break my heart. and he did. In the worst way. And yet. Those feelings were yet to be completely broken away. Do you, and you being myself, recall the moment when he had managed to get you so flustered your tongued stumbled like the feet beneath you? I do recall that silly emotion. That "crush". That was my first crush. I would say. That was the first time I had been rejected and the first time I had ever felt so passionately in one summer. Great times of change. yet as sad the memory lays, new ones lay fold in my arms. New memories and new love is being created. And I can't help but think that god had a plan for me. Oh silly god...what is you plan for me?
 flippinfilippino · Thu Dec 21, 2006 @ 04:20am · 0 Comments |
