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So I'm sitting here at Alyssa's, texting Eric....and...it's hit me that...I only have a few more years to live...my life that is..before I graduate from college and I'm going to want to have a family before I'm 30 lol...so Two or three more years before I'm married and...a couple more after that and I plan on being a mom. ^_^

As I watch sissy with Wednesday, it really makes me think about my life. What kind of wife am I going to be? What kind of mother? Will I have a good job? Will I have the money for a nice house? It's so overwhelming sometimes to realize how fast my life is moving now. It wasn't that long ago I was excited about starting college....It kinda scares me..

So I'm sitting here bored...and I'm thinking about my wedding and how perfect I want it to be.....I want a spring wedding..outside where the grass is super green. I want a beautiful white dress with a long train so that I look like a princess...more rather...a queen. I want a bouquet of beautiful red roses and flowers all around. Emerald green is going to be my color scheme *smiles* I plan on kidnapping Wednesday and making her my flower girl because she'll be able to walk by then. Alyssa is going to be my Maid of honor whether she likes it or not. My sister Kelsey, Amber, and Sara are going to be my bridesmaids. I need a little boy now for my ringbearer. (Somebody needs to get busy and have me a boy!! ^_^)

Then I started thinking about any kids I might have...I want at least 3 because I come from such a big family. So I have to be surrounded by noise, commotion, and the constant "Aaannt!!!" to tell a child no lol I want a little boy first..(hopefully) and I want his name to be Ryan Chase..and then I want a little girl.. and I want her name to be Leah Marie. What do you think? Kelsey can have Joey Nicole I guess lol And if I have another girl, she will be named, Isabella Grace. I think those are all good names.

I really hope my life goes the way I want it. I know that I can't expect it to be perfect, but I can make the choices to get it close enough.....

Enough pondering for now....