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Sometimes it feels as though to be alive I must die. But is this really the end all answer to me feeling the rush of life? No, I believe that if i take the life of something that has an equal life value as me, or greater, then I will feel alive. But for how long will I feel this? Is this for curtain? How would I go about doing it? My soul aches to feel alive and not have to be trapped in its shell. Oh how I wish I could just unleash total hell on someone and let myself go and not worry about what my demon will do to them. My demon also aches to fuse with my soul.....will I? Can I? Why can't I? I will, one of these days and I will finally be free, like I've always wanted to be.