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Hey everyone, I'm having a writers block, I have decided to get rid of most of my images on my computer but the dojuins, that is the only thing that interests me now sadly. I guess I just haven't felt like doing anything, I don't know what to do at all ever and I have been half-assing my way though life. But now I can not, and I'm lost. Oh well maybe this will be good for my book.....oh well, I doubt anyone will ever like it enough to actually buy it. I'm so sick and tired of living and yet so afraid to die. Yea I am that pitiful *i hit submit before i should, man that pisses me off* that I would say that, or at least that is how I am feeling. All I really want to do is go sleep or sit under running water....thats weird I know but it is true. Have I become so lazy that I won't do anything? Well I suppose the answer is no, I do do things but only if it is necessary and if it isn't then I won't. But does that make me a bad person, probably, probably not, I really don't think it matters at this point. Even so I want to be known as an honorable, trusting, intelligent, kind man. But even that seems like too much to ask, oh well it appears as though I've entered a rant. So I will stop here i suppose, oh well.