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Stop it, Alicia! STOP IT!

You're not supposed to fall in love! You're not supposed to beocme dependent upon someone! You're not supposed to dream of them and practically beg your phone to ring and for it to be them!


You're not supposed to plan a trip to North Carolina! You're not supposed to research anime conventions there! You're not supposed to want to LIVE there! What about New Jersey? What about the people here? Don't you love them, too?

And you're not supposed to think that he wants to talk to you all the time! You're not supposed to think that he wants to be your friend on myspace! You're not supposed to make him into another Erik!

He's got enough s**t to deal with on his own, Alicia. You don't believe what Nikki says, do you? He has problems, like everyone else. And they're worse than yours. Why do you have to make everything a big deal?

Just get down on your ******** knees and clean teh stain! Just control yourself! Just realize what you did and get on with it!

Don't do this to yourself. Just, don't. Admit there's something wrong. Get help. Do it, because it'll help you in the long run.