Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

Well...I'm just kinda pissed and agrivated. Jon and I spoke today. Something about the way s**t happened. Aparently, something in his note was important. It makes me angry that when I said "Will it do any good? Nope." he said "maybe". It kinda pisses me off and agrivates me that he's going to toy with my emotions like that. I hate games. After he said it, I actually thought about it...Then later on, it made me angry that he's going to ******** get my hopes up like that. He knows I still love him, and want to make it work, and yet he says something like that. It makes me want to cry. How can he toy with me like that? I'm not even sure he ment it. *cries* How can he do this to me? Have me sitting around, thinking if I figure it out, I may be able to have my family back.... crying It's killing me. Watch. I'll figure it out, and it wont make one bit of a difference. I'm terrified to get my hopes up....Their's always a chance my feelings will be thrown down the drain. I haven't cried this hard in about 5 days. I mean ******** see what I can remember.



sweatdrop Yeah...That's all I have for the moment. Wtf am I missing here? I knew I should have put it in a blog..I was going to, but decided against it. But is it going to do me any good? "Maybe.". This is stressful.

On another note, my hair is looking damn good today. If I had some AA I'd take some pictures. I could be a hair model. XD I think I've decided against dying it black/blue. I just look too damn good with red hair. lol. Not to mention with my favorite outfit. When I just let it down and don't put anything in it...I could just ******** myself. Aaaaanyway. I'm going to watch some movie. I think it's some movie called "The Captive". It's suppose to be really good. Horror of course. You know how I roll. ********. I forgot to record 'Steven's Untitled Rock Show' today. Grrr. Makes me angry. I'm getting sleepy...Running off of about an hour of sleep. I better go watch this before I crash. Tootles!! <3 <3