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Pain is as a ferrous fire fueled by hate and rage.
Pain is like a void that runs deep.
I hate this horrid day.
I fee like I need to kneel and pray.
Constant longings and endless sorrow.
I do not want to live to see tomorrow.
Make it go away I do not want to see the light of day.
I want to stay locked up inside till May.
All emotion gone and tears so dry.
This pain makes me want to die.
It feels like something inside me died,
It sounds like a grieving widow who had just cried.
It smells like something that had just died.
It looks like an empty vase.
It tastes bitter at the base.
I think I’m going to be sick.
Oh, God make it go away.
I do not want to live to see another day.
Crying and holding myself.
I feel so alone in a sold cold world.
Like no one cares or gives a crap.
I hold something and don’t let go.
I can’t sleep because my pillow is all wet.
My head hurts, my face is red.
I look like iv been beaten over the head.
How this pain makes me wish I was dead.
So sad I want someone to hold me.
So mad I need someone to know me.
I am sad today I don’t know why.
Feel lazy and don’t feel like doing much of anything.
In My heart there is a constant longing, it keeps prolonging.
Like something’s missing, a void that runs deep.
I want to cry but cant find the tears.
Some days everything in me just dies.
A loss of faith in life or random depression.
I don’t know what this is or when it will pass,
all I know is that i should leave these feeling in the past,
I am but one in a sea of faces, loosing my self in random places.
Pain, dark, empty, and no warmth.
A void of constant longings, crying bloody tears.
Bitter, cold, and constant sorrow.
I don’t want to live to see tomorrow.