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do you want to know something that truly hurts? Having someone you look up to, and have done everything to protect that persons name... for them to tell you that everything that you've done has no meaning, and that you make no sense. to teach you to not give up, then turn and tell you to back down and quit... it tears me up, and i can't be angry this time, because this person was my closest friend. he has protected me for so long, and even after he left, i still tried to be like him... but i guess that amounts to nothing in the end heh heh, you know. i said that i've changed, and i have, i hold my friends closer than ever before... which just makes it hurt more that i've lost another friend. I hope that no one else ever has to experience this... to live your life since 4th grade trying to love up to his name, only for him to tell you it all amounted to nothing, and that you are stupid, foolish and ignorant... ya, that's all i really wanted to say