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Today i am here to admit that i've once again fallen apart.

Sorrow
Sorrow
No tomorrow
The hardest pill to swallow
Blindly follow
Down this path of sorrow.

Not me at my worst. I was jsut tipping the iceberg when this one hit.

No Need
No need
Broken dreams
Shattering screams
never cared anyways
life, tis my curse
love, tis my thirst
lust, breaks and burns
corrupts my great thirst
Never listened to those scream
Now i try to redeem
Now i hold and i cling
Then, of course, is the flaw
There is really no need.

This one i spent trying to avoid hitting the real depression. On number three, i finally gave in. In this poem lies many of my greatest secrets, and i will surely regret having posted it... but her goes.

Turmoil

In my heart of hearts
I lie there alone.
Not seperate, not closed.
But just too far in.
Can't let them in,
as far as she goes
A promise was made.
Won't break one of those
So i watch as the world moves on without

Watching the one I first did see
Watch her move to that freak.
Watch close the girl of my dreams
Stand there beside he, yet just in my reach.
Still i lay, in my heart of hearts
Detached and alone, so that she
Who was always there for me
So she might not regret
So i might yet repent
In my heart of hearts
Turmoil starts.

And there you have it. some of my greatest secrets, open for the world to see. i really have to wonder why i do this. but really, i don't think it matters