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He who insults my friends deserves death. He who insults my soul deserves Torture

Let this be a warning to all those fools who wish to insult what i believe in, mainly, Naruto and Kingdom Hearts. I believe in these things because they are a part of me. My soul is attached to each of these things. Kingdom Hearts is what saved my life originally in a time when i lived in hell itself by comparison. My friends were there, but they understood nothing, and the year before, i had let down all my defenses. I was unprepared and thus was taken. Kingdom Hearts gave me a way to calm down and control the anger and sadness. It is my belief now that in order to escape a darkness that surrounds you, you must enter the darkness and face it head on where it is strongest. Fight it then and only the betrayal of a friend will be able to return it. For Naruto, it brought that hope to the next level. I had been able to hide behind the door, but people had discovered the door and had begun to insult it, my friends for the most part, who i had made the mistake of trusting. I went further and further out of control, before, i had originally just been angry at the world, and saddenned, i had pitied them, now, i loathed them, i wanted them all to die and i showed it. Fights were common, friendships were falling apart, many are never to be reconnected. Around that time, Naruto came out. At first, he was only good for a laugh or too, but as i saw further into the story, i discovered just how great he was. he was willing to fight no matter what people said or did to him. No matter what, he always gave it his all and got back up stronger than ever. I understand perfectly what Hinata meant when she spoke of him, he just has this air about him that gives all who know him a confidence to keep going and get stronger. Sasuke was like me in a way, he was the one who had been taught about how things could go wrong, but hadn't held it to being so closely attached to him. The tragedy of the Uchiha slaughter ended with him being almost identical to how i was. All that mattered was getting stronger so i could take revenge. Whether it be enemy or ally, they all deserved death as far as i was concerned. My allie's insulted my soul, my enemies insulted my friends, two things i could not allow. I hated every second of it. The summer before, i had learned to create an expressionless mask, and so, at times, it was impossible for them to tell i held such anger. I would strike without mercy, and i only lost control at the times when i knew the faceless mask had no use. i considered myself a demon and tried so hard to be emotionless that i began to think i was just that, someone with a demon trapped inside and no emotions at all. This message of hatred is sent to two individuals who i once considered allies but have proven to be enemies.

X.xkitty-catx.X and Lemon Giver

Each chose to insult me time and time again after i made the mistake of trusting them. i consider myself weaker than ever now for one reason. In elementary school, i could just stare at the clouds alone and be content, i needed no one, and was fine being alone, now i need friends. i have tried time and again to find that as a strength but that is something i cannot do.