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my feeling confuse me! make them stop! but no its not so bad actually....

people...friends from a long time ago just all of a sudden start to talk to me again. i dont like it -_- we used to be friends and then we just stopped for what ever reason. it was no big deal. they went on with their lives while i was locked away from the world for months and months. i thought a lot in those months while i was away. it did me no good. when i was able to talk to my old friends again i just had no desire. it seemed they didn't either. so life goes on.

but they couldn't let things be. they must talk to me and tell me things i dont wanna hear. they make me feel things i dont want to. i miss them...but its all different now. i dont want to talk to the people who once loved and cared for me and i dont want to talk to the people i love. i love not feeling!

but soon they will see it wont work...and they will forget about me and leave me more confused and sad as ever. ******** the people i once called friends. they make my heart hurt....