People will never really know what will happen when they wake up in the morning. They will never know if daeth is coming or if it is going to be the turning point in your life. My father was diagnosed with cancer almost 5 years ago. THE DOCTORS SAID HE WOULD BE LUCKY TO MAKE IT 3. But even though he has still fought and is still with us, things started going down hill with a spiral that would make even the stillest person sick. We made a change in our life that we thought would be for the better. I cant tell you now if it is going to be in the logn run, but since we moved to a certain place, we have been poor, homeless, and even slept on the beach. I will never know if things will ever get better and stay that way. Ive been picked up and thrown down so many times my mind and body is tired of being this way.Thats pretty bad when your tired of being tired. But it is not only me who has to deal with the pain, for it would be horrible to forget what the rest of my family has to endure, especially my father. But by god, or the devil we make it throught the week alive and together. My father once told me (He does not believe in god but their is a devil and a heaven and hell, for him) that it might be that God does not want him, and neither does the devil. Both making an agreement for him to stay on earth until he could be no more. Mabe that is true for he was sure to be dead a long time ago. He has broken every bone in his body for our family to afloat this storm that humanity calls life. But at what cost to him. To be the worlds toy, to watch him suffer and fell in his attempts to keep us alive and together. My mother said god was only testing us. If so then why has it dragged on so long. If it was we have proved that we will not wither and die, but burn toger into our final ashes and rest together before letting the world tear us apart.
You will hear more of my storys of past horrid and living the way we do, but do not judge because you will never know if the world will think foolish of you and cast you down at her disposale.
From the truth
Ashley Isabella
rockoutgirl101 Community Member 
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